It is monday. A gray and rainy and chilly monday. I could have stayed in bed all day, and slept. Since it is Columbus day, the kids are off school. This of course means I get to play the role of ref today. It is not that I don't like having the kids here, it just would be nicer if they could go ut to play, rather then be cooped up inside the house, and turning into little shits because they are bored.
I have been having the worst hot flashes lately, which tells me my hormones need to be tinkered with. This of course means that I will most likey be queasy for a while until they figure out what strength to put me on. It also means that I may put on more weight, which will not make me happy at all. I am having issues getting this ten pounds that creeped up on me since the hysterectomy, off. I feel whaleish, and rather round. Of course my husband tells me this is far from the truth, but you know it certainly doesn't feel like it. I am still in the single digits in pants size, which is good.
The other thing that bums me out is that I cannot wear any of the cute trendy shirts. My bust is too freakin big for those types of shirts, and it pisses me off to no end. I am only 5'1", and yet I cannot wear the cute tiny shirts, because I look like I had huge boob transplant. It is not like I want to wear belly shirts, far from it, I want to wear the strappy shirts, and not a damn one has fit me yet. It is so freakin depressing. Yes, I know not a huge thing given all the bad things that are going on in the world today, but damn it all to hell, it is frustrating.
I lost all of this weight, and I still have to buy a large or extra large in shirts to fit my ginormous boobs.
I feel perpetually out of sinc with the fashion of the moment.
Could be that I am really stressed, and my way of dealing with that is to pick out the small thing in life that irritate me. I don't know. All I know is I feel completely restless lately. Which sucks ass big time.
Calgon take me away, please, far far away!
:)
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