Just completely and totally frustrated.
Without going into details and specifics, I am frustrated with the lack of response I am getting from certain people. It is to the point where I am about to block out that part of me that cares, because it is that frustrating.
I don't want to be one of those people who closes off parts of themselves, because they can't or don't handle frustration with others well, but I am near a point where I think that would be best.
Back all the way off, and just not be the first person to reach out.
I feel like I am making all of the effort and getting all of the hurt.
I feel like I am the only one on this far out wave length, and I think how ridiculous it must look to those around me.
So I think I am making an effort to refocus my attentions back to where they should be, my son and my husband.
Everyone else can decide to fall in line after that, or not. I am done playing this game where no one really says what they mean, they beat around the bush, and I have to drag things out. I am tired of being the person to make the first move.
I am just tired.
And apparently in a bad mood.
And I need to lose a few pounds.
And my self worth and esteem are in the crapper.
So I am having a most excellent day.