A Change Of Pace

So last night I let the Habit get the better of me, and pretty much make me a weepy, depressed mess. I guess it is ok every once and a while to have an emotional reaction, heh.

So today I am coming home from getting dinner and a Robbie Williams song comes on--on a side note, I can play music on my phone through my car--No Regrets. I actually listened to the words and thought, you know, I could apply that to the Habit ( I want to type Hobbit, it would be ironic).
Lyrics by Robbie Williams:

Tell me a story
Where we all change
And we'd live our lives together
And not estranged

I didn't lose my mind it was
Mine to give away
Couldn't stay to watch me cry
You didn't have the time
So I softly slip away...

No regrets / they don't work
No regrets / they only hurt
Sing me a love song
Drop me a line
Suppose it's just a point of view
But they tell me I'm doing fine

I know from the outside
We looked good for each other
Felt things were going wrong
When you didn't like my mother

I don't want to hate but that's
All you've left me with
A bitter aftertaste and a fantasy of
How we all could live

No regrets / they don't work
No regrets / they only hurt
(We've been told you stay up late)
I know they're still talking
(You're far too short to carry weight)
The demons in your head
(Return the videos they're late)
If I could just stop hating you
(Goodbye)
I'd feel sorry for us instead

Remember the photographs (insane)
The ones where we all laugh (so lame)
We were having the time of our lives
Well thank you it was a real blast

No regrets / they don't work
No regrets / they only hurt
Write me a love song
Drop me a line
Suppose it's just a point of view
But they tell me I'm doing fine

Everything I wanted to be every
Time I walked away
Every time you told me to leave
I just wanted to stay
Every time you looked at me and
Every time you smiled
I felt so vacant you treat me like a child
I loved the way we used to laugh
I loved the way we used to smile
Often I sit down and think of you
For a while
Then it passes by me and I think of
Someone else instead
I guess the love we once had is
Officially dead


Obviously not every.single.word. applies to Habit, but the gist does. So I am going to try to use this song as a sort of catalyst to get over Habit.

Not sure if this means I can ever be friends with Habit again, or if this means I have to block Habit out completely. But it's been about 2.5 years and I still have feelings, that have not been dealt with. I guess now is as good a time as any.

So
No regrets, they don't work for me.

TaTa Habit. You will not turn me into heart break pudding.